quick review of xw's place

the teletubbies. :)

just a quick review of some pictures, i haven get all the pictures from jes. haha. cool cool pictures. :)

i realised no matter what i do, it's either too little or too much. and i cant seem to be bothered anymore, cos i've already decided not to care, nor bother. sleepless nights lately, nightmares almost everyday, waking up with tears in my eyes. shit. i even saw the bloody woman's face. they were having some intimacies, i supposed. nothing seems to be right. breaking cane into two, what more will i experience in my dreams. ha.

sigh.

off to tuition. wed's coming. :)

Brian Mcknight- back at one

"Back At One"

It's undeniable... that we should be together...
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis you need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real...
If all things in time, time will reveal...
Yeah...

One... you're like a dream come true...
Two... just wanna be with you...
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me...
Four... repeat steps one through three...
Five... make you fall in love with me...
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One (yeah)

So Incredible... the way things work themselves out...
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe...
And undesirable... for us to be apart...
Never would of made it very far...
Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart
Cause...

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me
Four.. .repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One......

Say farewell to the dark of night... I see the coming of the sun...
I feel like a little child... whose life has just begun...
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line... just in the Nick of Tiimmmeeee.....

One... you're like a dream come true
Two... just wanna be with you
Three... girl it's plain to see... that your the only one for me... girl and...
Four... repeat steps one through three
Five... make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done... then I start Back at One.

went out with my girlies today. :) im missing them alr. diora, i miss you too. i cant wait for thurs to come! anyway, i was out with my bitches to bugis, then to vivo today. we skipped pbf class today again! ono. tt's really bad. :( i still had fun tho. i bought my 10bucks shorts again. haha. aft shopping, ziqin came to pick us up, and off to vivo!

shopped awhile, then decided to watch a movie. i finally get to watch my 27 dresses. yeah! ok la. not too bad, but i think ps. i love you will be much much much better! im definitely gonna watch it, it will be really great if i watch it with that special someone. but too bad, i dont have one. :( i guess have to ask friends to watch it alr. i will definitely cry watching that. :)

gela's super grumpy today. i know how you feel gela, don worry, think u passed it to me. :( bcos, im feeling that way now. im feeling damn empty, nth causes it. but u just feel really empty, like why the hell am i in this world. yea, that kind of feeling. kinda sucky, i know. :(

i saw the orion belt again today! i din see it at first, cos the clouds were like blocking it, and finally i saw it! apparently it's always around up there. haha. but im still really excited to see it, cos it's really cool that the 3 stars can just be in one straight line, and i've always thought stars are everywhere. so cool.

so i reached home like around 11pm again. cannot really be bothered alr. i cant wait for wednesday to come!! food food food with uncle huat. yea!! and there's actually a surprise on wed, stupid uncle huat dont tell me! sigh. i really cant wait to eat and eat. eating's like the most wonderful thing on earth. haha. :) like what al said, we will eat when we meet, like before we start doing things for the day, and we will eat before we leave. hahaha. owell. i really like eating, and im always hungry. haha.

im still quite affected by the fact that there's somebody else alr. shit. :(

many many many pictures soon. :)

A girl named Al.

it's really a surprise how one can change so quickly. trying so hard one moment, and another moment, there's somebody else in mind. haha. irony isnt it. but what can i do, or what can i say? im in no right to comment nor am i in a right state of mind to do so. yes, mixed feelings at that point of time, sad, pissed, whatever. damn them la, seriously.

read jesmen's blog and wanted to blog a story too. :) dont mind, jesmen. :)

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a girl named al.

a baby girl named al was born, like all the babies, she was doted like a precious gem by everybody, and i mean everybody. her daddy loves her the most. whatever she wants or cries for, she will definitely get it. and she's definitely a daddy's girl. she loves her daddy so much so that, everytime when it reaches around the evening, she will automatically crawl towards the door and wait for her daddy to reach the doorstep. cos she knows that her daddy will carry and give her a big daddy's hug whenever he comes home from work. this is what you call fatherly love.

however as the years passed, the love between her daddy and herself starts to widen, leaving a really huge gap in between. there's still the love there but it's fading. she grew into a pretty young lady and her daddy starts to be over obsessive in protecting his little daughter. means and ways to make her stay right beside him. but, he didn realise that times have changed, being too control freak wouldn make someone listen to you. moreover al is a super strong headed lady. both their characters are just so similar and no wonder it clashed.

the more he controls, the more al starts to detest him or should i say hate him? hated him to the extent that she wished that her daddy was dead, or hoping that mummy and daddy will divorce each other and she will stay with her mummy. silly, isnt it. but owell, that's how much she hates him, or that's what she thought so.

and true enough, one day, al's wishes came true. her daddy died in an accident. she thought she felt much happier and relieved, but actually deep down, she's crying so so so badly. she finally realised that she doesnt really hate daddy that much. in fact, she really loves him and she has always been suppressing and not showing her love for daddy. cos, of everything, everything he did to her.

at this particular point of time, she hopes she can turn back time, the time when she was still a baby, the time when she and daddy were so close..

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end of story. pictures up soon. :)

I PASSED!!

OMG OMG OMG! i know almost everybody knows!! but i have to blog it down, I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST with demerit points of 10!!!!! YEAH!! im so so so so so happy. the feeling is just something that cannot be described? moreover, it's only my first attempt!! haha. no mini skirts, no low cuts, just normal jeans and tank top! haha. i didn bribe the tester either! boo! :)

yeah! im overjoyed definitely. i guess im just super super lucky today! haha. my tester's really nice, he cut short my route. haha! never thought i will pass you know. altho it's just auto, which is class 3A. still, im very happy! gonna rent a car really soon. first thing first, drive my parents around! haha. then drive some friends around which i alr promised. yeah. haha. wonderful 2008! MWAH!

after TP, i called text almost everyone to share my joy! haha. diora toh cy! im praying for you and passing all my luck to you!! must pass k! we'll rent car and go out together! haha. i still cannot believe i pass seriously, it's like a dream. omg. :)

anyway! i met up with chia and ching feng fr dinner today! haven meet them since 2yrs ago? yea. super long. and apparently both of them are working adults alr, whole day talk bou work. but im still happy to see them! will definitely catch up again soon. :) we went back to thai village restaurant to visit everyone! and all of them recognise me, jus dont rmb my name. haha. it's ok. at least they still rmb that i do exist! exchange nos and all. definitely gonna meet up!

i need to see andrew soon! he's gonna go overseas so soon and all of us are so busy! in fact, im the one. haha. so sorry people. we'll make it on a tues, 5th feb, k? :(
hope to hear from u guys really really soon.

and WATER'S REAL! I KNOW WHO ARE YOU ALR!! damn dumb can, why dont put your real name. okok. a lil secret btw the both of us k. haha. and thanks so much, cos fr the past few days, u have been listening to my grumbles non-stop. haha. i'll drive you around soon k! yeah! :)

KELLY TAN

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!

I'm so looking forward to tomorrow kelly!! happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to kelly!~ 21 already! so fast! we are grown ups now! please be more mature and go get yourself a gf pls! I want a da sao really soon! or jie fu? hahahaha. okok. i shouldn be evil since it's ur birthday! anyway, happy birthday to you and may all your wishes come true, best buddy! you know im evil but deep down i really care! haha. cya tmr. :)

loves,

alison. :)

mariah carey and whitney housten-when you believe

Wh:
Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know theres much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

Oah yes
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Mc:
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My hearts so full I cant explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought Id say

There can be miracles
When you believe
(wh: when you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miraclea
You can achieve
(wh: you can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Both:
They dont always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fear
Ohhhhh
But when youre blinded by your pain
Cant see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles
(wh: miracles)
When you believe
(wh: when you believe)
Though hope is frail
Its hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
(wh: you can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
(wh: somehow somehow somehow)
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you
Believe

pioneer batch of westwood, stil remember this song? hahaha. miss kok played us this song! omg! it has been 8years! goodness! i somehow miss westwood. memories. :)

out with 7th aunt and jes.

Clarke Quay

do i look really tired? everybody's asking me the same thing when they see me. why are you so shagged? even my tuition kid's mum's asking me the same thing. i must look really tired then. :(

damn. im so bored now. :(

zi char with cher and kc tmr! yea! :)

SALSA

I dunno why the hell did ivan take this pic. i was just lying on the wall with my eyes closed. haha.

ricky

dovan

ivan! :)

salsa audition today was damn fun. definitely an unforgettable moment for all of us! haha. we are made to dance solo in the small studio room. 3 parts. salsa solo, salsa with partner, and some club dancing. i totally screwed up my club dancing and my body wave. shit! never been so so embarrassed. haha. even thinking of it makes me so embarrassed. ono. haha.

i really should be appreciative, so ivan, thank you for accompanying me down to audition and we succeeded in making ourselves clowns! yea! haha. i hope u had fun and i definitely had fun too k. a really good experience. :) im looking forward to next week's salsa class alr! spins and spins! haha.

im finally meeting cher and kc tomorrow, and provided that they dont ps. haha. :)

I'm afraid that if I want anything too much, it means I'll never have it.

A powerful statement isn't it? I can think of so so so many cases to prove my stand.

Take for example myself. I've always wanted total freedom, breaking free from the clutches of my parents, but yet, when did I ever get that? since secondary 1, it has been like 8years? wow, almost a decade, but, do you see any freedom that I've gained? NO, in fact, curfew's still going on when I'm already 21? haha. oyea. only when my parents are away, then I'll start getting sneaky and secretive. so called total freedom huh? lol.

People often say, in order to achieve something, you have to always believe in yourself and eventually you will get what you want. but seriously, how true is this? 1 out of 10 cases? or am I just damn unlucky?

Let's not talk about total freedom. How many people have already face this situation with regards to love? the more you want it, the more you'll never get it. or should I just say the more you never get, the more you will want it? Are human beings damn cheap or god is just unfair? lol. I prefer to think that human beings are just damn cheap. when something comes to you, you choose to push it away. but when it doesnt comes to you, you'll hope it comes. argh. contradiction, this is what I call.

owell, so much of the bullshit, but I'm really afraid that if I want anything too much, I'll never ever have it? and it has always been this case..

definitely a personal point of view. and i dont care who reads my blog, but it's MY blog. I choose to blog anything I want. :)

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owell. after like 2years, I had my 20mins of jog today? wow. damn shiok. was so so so good. I ran quite far. I've never liked the out of breath feeling. but it feels damn good with the out of breath feeling today. it's just my mood la. damn. im dead tired. :(

listening to the song 'so close', browsing through the older posts, memories pouring, heart beating, tears running. o damn. i realised i've grown so much. haha. my hair has grown much much longer too. i really should just delete the older posts. like damn. no no no, i should be really busy now. but i guess, i should really sit down and rest, think carefully what the hell do i want in my life. i mean seriously, i cant continue being busy forever, trying to escape some things right.

i have to get down to study, really.

i hate the feeling of loneliness, i hate the 'missing that someone' feeling, i hate it when im just avoiding and avoiding and avoiding. i hate it when im being controlled, i hate it when my parents dont trust me. i hate it when they start restricting me to do things, i hate it when it reaches the night when i need to rush home. i hate all my awful dreams. i hate my childhood, i hate being such a mountain tortoise. i hate it that when i want anything too much, it means i'll never ever get it. i hate all my commitments. i hate the feeling of being so close and yet still so far. i hate it when i have to be so dependent. i hate it when im awfully awfully tired.

in short, i am just afraid. scaredy cat, that means.

it has been a super super busy month of the year and i'm loving it! yea! busy with sch, study, tuition, driving, going out, blah blah blah. everybody's turning 21 this year! omg, im feeling so broke alr. sigh. wondering whether i should do my hair not. shit. so so so broke. :(

im so gonna kill samuel, reminded me things that i shouldn be reminded of. argh. asshole. :)

sigh, i realise i've been missing somebody more than i wanted to. shit, no no no. i'll continue being busy. :(

anyway, had a girls' day out with gela, mayanne, diora, mayanne's friend(i dunno how to spell her name:)). it's been awhile since all of us hang out. and really nice meeting mayanne's friend. :) we just spent time watching sex and the city, which im hooked to it alr, and we had dinner together. :) mayanne's mum's cooking is fabulous. great meehoon and great curry. yum. im beginning to miss it alr. :)

diora left earlier to meet ronny tho, and so the rest of us continued the sex and the city, and decided to go to the pool to slack. we were in the jacuzzi, dipping in the cold cold water, chatting bou some eerie things. shall not elaborate on that. scare the shit hell out of me. lol. then it was cinderella's time again. damn. :(

sigh, im missing the girls alr. :( i really wish i could hang out with them again. nvm. chinese new year's coming! i think everybody will be busy to go play with me tho. :(

sigh. seriously, what is everybody up to lately? super irritated. argh.

jurong hilltop with jeffrey. :)

bugis with samuel, gela and her fren. :)

SILOSO FUN