Alison = failure. failure in what? well, i guess in everything. every single thing. failure in studies, failure in relationships, failure in friendships, failure in work, failed as a daughter, failed as a girlfriend, failed as an owner. hahaha.

smiley, smiley and smiley. seriously, who knows what's beneath. nobody knows.

im seriously tired, tired of being so smiley, tired of suppressing, tired of everything.

so funny thing, when i read zun's novel yesterday, i couldnt help but cry.

maybe i need somebody to talk to, somebody who really understands, and somebody who's always there.

Lol. can you guess which's me? oman! I miss the past! haha. cant i just go back to where i was?

歌曲：不配
歌手：萧亚轩

好朋友多年不见的约会
我以为你已经无所谓
本来很想问你有没有为我伤悲
但是我又何苦勉强你惭愧

我大概只会问你喝不喝咖啡
你也许不会问我有没有爱谁
我们再不会如过去互相安慰
比陌生人还要虚伪

我对你你对我关怀都不配
谁知道你爱谁
我为你你为我流泪都不配
免得再有误会
想念你这样的话说来太暧昧
我猜你不会为离开我赎罪
也别让我受罪
让我尝到真正永别的滋味

早知道再没相爱的机会
没想到再难宾至如归
本来很想笑说我们就像两兄妹
怕不争气得泪让我更狼狈

我大概只会问你喝不喝咖啡
你也许不会问我有没有爱谁
我们再不会如过去互相安慰
比陌生人还要虚伪

我做你你做我朋友都不配
我不是你的谁
我和你你和我握手都不配
连见面都不配
想念你这样的话说来太暧昧
早知道你不会为告别我赎罪
只会让我受罪
让我尝到真正永别的滋味

Ok. these are pictures of this morning's breakfast. we went to toys-r-us and of cos mich and me became kind of bimbotic. haha. we started cam-whoring! hoho. BUT i look damn shagged in the pics. know why? cos i was being so nice and kind enough to meet the 2pigs for breakfast even tho i was damn tired. lol. i slept at 3am last night and i had floorball training too! and i was disturbed early in the morning by stupid kelly! boo.

owell. i really look like i just woke up. haha.

sister kelly costs $49.90! people, grab him fast! Kelly, im promoting u ok! haha

SPIDERMAN!

Acting cute with cute barney.

we are the pom pom girls!

mama-san

bleah!

Yesterday's floorball training was the best! Oman, it's been 1yr since i perspired so much. was tiring but happy! however, my back's aching like mad now. lol.

Guess what? I'm being selected! woohoo! first job ever!

Nothing beats cam-whoring! anytime, anywhere~ lol. went out with jesmen on saturday. to wheelock. wanted to have my sushi buffet, but didn have! so sad. i still had my sushi tho, yum! nevertheless, it's still nice for the 'teletubbies' to meet up again, excluding one. so there are only 3! haha. only we know.

putting up a brave front everyday. im tired, you know. =(

Salsa class was pathetic with only 7 people today including me! however, it was still fun except for the cross body turn part. omg! it made me damn dizzy. just couldn't get it right. lol. but well, at least salsa can let me forget things for awhile. cos thru'out i was laughing at myself non-stop. the guys were fun. haha. today's the last lesson for beginner's 1. 2mths later will be beginner's 2, ivan better let me know he's taking which day. i don want to go to classes alone. lol.

im feeling so tired lately. don know why. i couldn start bitching or be crazy lately. everything seems like a bore to me now. sigh.

kwang wen's bd like next week. boring, got to spend money again! lol. ooo, im lookig forward to sushi buffet at sakae on Saturday with Jesmen and my sis! Yum Yum! i hope this time round i wouldn fall sick.

boring!

How hypocritical can one get seriously? Telling me this, and doing things the other way. owell, there are just all sorts of people, everywhere. Yes, im pissed by what i saw. but well, i have no right anyway. just let me rant about it, yea.

Just like what daniar said, all girls are sluts and all guys are jerks. i dont really agree, cos me and some of my friends are definitely not sluts and jerks, definitely not you daniar, so we should just call ourselves bitches and bastards. lol! it's more appropriate. i mean im a bitch, of cos, but no SLUT definitely. better than some people who loves being a hypocrite. karma will befall!

Damn! Im being so childish now, but i cant just get the fucking hell right out of my mind.

driving practical's tomorrow, like finally! it's been so long since i touched a car. lol. i really hope next year 25th jan, i could just pass! my first time, it's hard. i know.

ooo. i love angela and diora! i hope they really plan something nice during CNY. im so looking forward to it! 4 more months to go! i shall be havoc for 4 nights! lol!

Argh, please slap me somebody. i know im being random. but pleeease KILL me! ha.