my love :)

the bad habits that you once hate,

the lousy ways you once tolerated,

that's when you'll start missing them and realising that all these are part of your life when u lost someone or something dear.

that's how people learn isn't it?

the hard way.

Presenting my short, ugly, highlighted hair! TSK!

a day of shopping, eating and drinking. went all the way to tampines mall just to shop in the newly opened Uniqlo. they made it like it's LV or whatever with tons of people queuing outside when there's a sale just to control the crowd in it. ohwell, the things are totally basic and cheap for these 10days. yup. bought a 3/4 pants and a polo tee.

then went Ice Cold Beer to have dinner and some beer. haven been drinking at all for about a month? the food there were great, yum yum shrimp paste chicken wings.

another month's time to exams, better buck up ALISON TAY!! you are so dead, haven been studying properly for the past 3 days!!

I saw this story in dogsforum.sg and i know i have to post it. do read it alright. :)

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,

Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.

Love,
Meredith

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, 'To Meredith' in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, 'When a Pet Dies.' Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:

Dear Meredith,

Abbey arrived safely in heaven.

Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.

Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by..

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much.

By the way, I'm easy to find, I am wherever there is love.

Love, God

I cut my hair today!! it's short and aunty hair!! DAMNIT. i don't like the top part! damn sad!! i'll take pictures of my hair next time and post it here k. :(

I miss hanging out. :(

HMMM.. feels slightly different lately. when i'm bugged with a question and it's unanswered, it used to affect me alot and i will want to get the answer asap. but now, im not affected by not getting any answers but rather affected by me not bothered by getting the answers. i aint as affected as i used to, not even if missing for half a day or something, i can't really be bothered anymore. I hope this is going to be a good thing.

i'm really afraid what i'm afraid of will happen. and if it ever happens, i know it's gonna hurt.