i have nothing to blog about lately. life's kind of constant, a lil arguments here and there, but everything's still fine. work's still the same, busy yet slack at the same time. i'm starting tuition next week, back to being busy again. :)

hmmm, let me recall, the last movie I watched was Hancock. haha. it's a superhero kind of movie, was ok. Hancock portrays everyone in reality, i guess. who wouldn want to be appreciated? and when you aren being appreciated, you'll feel damn dejected and start doing the reverse.

im damn tired.

Fort Canning

requested jesmen to help me take some "professional" pictures, i ended up screwing up all the pictures. i seriously cant make it with my facial expressions. haha. read jes's blog, why not you honey? i like your pictures, i'm comfortable with you, and u can teach me poses i'll never think of. so we shall do it more often k. haha. this time round more faces without the hair. haha.

i miss the way it was used to. the way when my heart's immuned to feelings, the way when i was never serious at all. just fun times without pain, without sorrow, without mixed emotions, without nothing. when things just aint going your way, it's fucking sickening. but that's life isnt it. you cant make everything go your way, if it does, i guess life's gonna be a little boring.

im trying to do things to keep myself busy again, which is good in a way. yesterday which is a sat, had homecoming at westwood. was boring, with little little memories rising. ohwell, have to catch up once in awhile i guess. then rush down to fort canning to cam whore with jesmen! will upload pictures once we have edited them. then rush down to kallang again to watch gary's concert with angela baby, uncle huat and edmund baby tikopeh. haha. gary's voice is superb tho it's a little bit boring cos he couldn dance and make his audience high. but i think his voice is seriously enough. haha. many many pictures awaiting.

are my expectations really that high? haha. whatever.

see, that's the price to pay for being a player. serve you right my dear.

PAIN, that's the word to describe how i'm feeling right now. something that i really hate, something that i've been avoiding for years and yet it came back again. and i allowed it to come back. so silly of me isnt it. sometimes i asked myself is it really worth it, or am i just wasting time. it's just mixed feelings whether to give up or not. cos after trying and trying and trying, it still doesnt work, you dont really see the point in it anymore. but yet, cos of the no of times u have tried, it's like a waste to just give up like that. owell, doesnt matter i guess. it takes time. :)

this distance is getting into me.
and i realise one thing, sarcasm can be loads of fun.