al.

al may look strong at times, but she's one with emotions and feelings too. she knows what is anger, sadness, happiness, loneliness, fear whatever. she's not one to be treated lightly, not even the slightest bit. but apparently, everyone's treating her lightly, even her own dad. 'im not your boyfriend, i dont have to TRUST you.' so what's that for? is she a puppet?

a puppet for everybody to play with and throw away? people come and go as they like, random, i should say. but cant they just spare a thought for al? how would al feel or how would she think? even friends she trust can never be trusted. what the hell has this world come into? or is she still too naive to step into the reality world? so, even if she becomes a player, a 3rd party, who can she blame? but al never wants to be a player nor a 3rd party, cos it's really tiring to do so.

so al chooses not to fall in love, i shouldn say never cos emotions cannot be controlled. she rather pulls back than falling into it. going thru all the steps over and over again is darn tiring. she never know the person she has fallen in love with is a great man, or just another ordinary guy whom she has met, cheater. she becomes so picky that every now and then, she will tell herself, know what, there's definitely someone much much better. but seriously, who's much much better? nobody she guess.

nevertheless, love is a wonderful thing. but at least not for al. :) she used to think friendship's a much worthy thing for, but apparently, she doesnt think so alr.