Zirca. Gay love. Kw's birthday.

this was the start of drifting away.

Kelly said sth that bugged me for a few days. He meant something like that, an opinionated person tends to clash with anybody. What do you people think?

Well, I have my doubts about this statement. why would an opinionated person clash with another person? or is it just because the other party couldn't take the fact that they are wrong or that they cannot have anyone against them and not supporting their stand or they can't stand to lose? I think we shud think about it carefully, including myself, and this might help in any forms of relationship, be it friendship, family blah blah blah.

Just a moment of thought.

Never ever judge a person by one's appearance. who would ever know that a nerdy and decent looking young chap reading a book on a train is a offender of molest? Yes, I met one this morning while I was on the way to CCK station. Can you believe that? A prolly 15 or 16yr old chap touched me just now. Sick to the max. What's up with kids nowadays? cos, they are more exposed to yellowish or bluish shit on the internet or cos schools aren't having enough education on crimes with regards to sex? I mean seriously, so young, and yet so daring.

I shud have called the police right? I let him off cos he's young and I don't have any evidence. cos he's doing it discreetly and I doubt any passengers saw it. and, singaporeans, will they even bother to help? I seriously doubt so. But this chap was so daring that he attempted to touch my thigh with his index finger while pretending to read a book and stared at me after I looked at him. I thought he wasn't on purpose, so I didn't say anything. The 2nd time, his palm was on my thigh and staring at me at the same time. I was horrified. I took off my earpiece and told him off straight that I'll call the police if he continues his act. I'm sure people heard, he still told me yes m'am and walked away.

I shud have called someone, shuldn't have left this person in this world not doing sth to him. he needs help. SIGH. such an asshole. ARGH!

Then again, I did a good deed on my way back. helped a blind board on the train. and saw another secondary sch kid helping the handicapped alight the train. well, mb I shudn't deem all of them as bad, mb some.

goodness gracious me.

我只想离开爱上你的阴天，

只想让自己勇敢一点。

FRIENDS

what is your definition of a friend? has anyone ever think about it?

Wikipedia's definition shows that: Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism.

And the values found in a friendship?

Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating the following on a consistent basis:

• the tendency to desire what is best for the other
• sympathy and empathy
• honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth, especially in terms of pointing out the perceived faults of one's counterpart
• mutual understanding

I personally feel that friends don't just share hardship, but happiness and joy too, also able to talk about anything under the sun and will call you or make time for you no matter what, not just one-sided or all talks and that's for a true friend.

So, why the sudden interest to write a post on friends? Well, I realised I have so many friends that none can consider as a true friend. I mean honestly and seriously. All just come and go, and none's willing to give up their time for you? no matter how you deem the person as a true friend. This post may hurt a few people, but well, if you really do feel hurt, then you prolly are a friend. If not, don't give me talks.

Yup, I have nth to hide, I do feel left out. mb cos I've always wanted a true friend who's there for me, who can share jokes with me, who can have dinner with me, or even shopping, movies, whatever, I understand it can't be always because people are busy with lots of things too but you guys know what I mean. I've always wanted to. But it seems like that's quite impossible and I admit to fate. Rather than asking people out and having rejections or with people being so busy or to have friends with big mouths, I choose to be a loner and coop myself at home. cos at least I know, my family's always here for me, especially Lakz.

Lakz is considered as a true friend to me. Although he can't talk, but at least I share many many many things with him. And so that's why I cannot lose him. Was so silly last night crying over things that hasn't happened. I cried because I am so afraid that I will lose Lakz, so afraid that I'll lose my only confidante, and sad that people around me just like to talk.

Well, maybe it's just me. I know what kind of person I am. too direct, too straightforward, doesn't care how my words may hurt people. maybe it really is me. but what is wrong with speaking up my mind if you are a true friend. ohwell.

i know, such an emo post but whatever. I just want to say whatever I want to say. Ciao.

i so wish i have somebody to rely on, cos i know we clash.

There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.

Edith Wharton

i'm rather confused. i don't know what i want. i ask myself the same question every single night. what shud i do?

my love, my darling

LAKZ

FYI, Lakz just went for grooming on Tuesday. So he looks neat and tidy finally! haha.

oh my love, my darling.

i need to shorten my bangs and remove the greens.

damn.

it is, so goddamn hard to organise something.

boobooboo! (random)

ARGH!!

halloween night

a night of ice cold beer with a game of pool

can you tell who is beside me? i know you can.

haha