alison

i feel sad when my friends feel sad recently, i put myself in their shoes and this is bad. cos I shouldn, it will hurt me instead. but i can't help feeling upset. i want all my friends to be happy, i really do. i just read a blog of my friend's and yeah, she sounds down, not the cheerful friend that i've always known. :(

i miss all my old friends so much, i really do, even though they are only a handful but at least there aren't any false pretenses around them. they really do feel happy for me when i do well or when i'm happy and really do feel the same when i feel sad or unhappy.

why is this world full of pretentious people with pretentious acts that i'm really sick of. i just want to mix around with people who are real, people who will just tell me my faults right straight into my face rather than saying it behind my back. I don't mind having face to face criticisms or confrontation seriously. that's more true. i hate it when people start telling you that this person isn't nice and still treat that person as a gem. seriously, just kiss my ass. i can't stand those shit and that's prolly why people can't stand me. haha.

ohwell, enough ranting. few more hours to go to clear all our damn doubts. SIGH.