my goddamn fierce look

nothing to lose, NOT AT ALL.

YES! landed myself a job in IRIS NATION, an advertising company which is located at China Street, not too sure how to go tho. haha. was lost for an hour today for the interview(i drove there, lol.) anyway, altho it's an admin/recept job but I think I'll learn loads there. the working environment is fantastic, everybody's working together, don't really have such thing as a hierachy claimed by the office manager and most importantly, it's definitely not a desk-bound job. it starts 8.45am tho while all the rest starts at 9.30am. ohwell, doesn't really matter does it? times are hard seriously, can't afford to be fussy over this and that.

so which means, i'll be busy and tired from thursday onwards! tuition's starting in july too. exhausting but nevertheless, i'm happy. :)

well, i had my interview this afternoon and thinking about it, I don't really want this job cos of the travelling time to town and the long working hours and worst of all, I cannot drive to town! the parking's eff-ing expensive! so what next? wait for another job to come? matter of fact, I dont really have much time left or just take it and tolerate? SIGH, don't know what to do man.


evil and unhappy thoughts kept coming into my mind and I can't help it. I just can't forgive and forget so easily I guess.


honestly, there's nothing much for me to blog about or maybe there is so much but I can't show it here or in public. I am in pain, so much so that I don't know what to do but keep hurting the ones around me. I don't know why, mb it's my way to make people care. mb it's wrong, mb it's not. definitely different views about it. it's wrong to live your life sadly, but who's the one to judge whether it's really right or not. you just have to understand that nobody, not even a single soul wants to be upset and it's just the things around us or rather the ones around us have hurt us unknowingly. nobody can tell you whether is it worth it or not.

I know I have to learn that the world isn't fair. if you love somebody, that someone will not love you back as much. if you want this assignment badly, there will definitely be biasness. haha. ohwell, I'm just crapping and tired.

I don't like this, not anymore.

From Chinatown Temple Street for dessert to Alexandra V for bak kut teh to Dempsey for Seafood Platter. Haha, the whole day was about food. we didn't drink because I can't due to driving. it was nice meeting up the girls tho, the last time I saw them was the last day of exam. all of them are working now cept' me. too bad diora couldnt join us cos' she woke up late as usual. haha. hope to see you soon diora!

ok, i just completed gossip girl season 2 and i know it's so not me. i'm surprised myself too. :) season 2's kinda boring with all the breaking up and getting back together over and over again. well, maybe bcos I don't like to see break-ups. haha. but i'm thrilled that chuck and blair got together! i hope they stay.

yes, i'm very slow, but as i've said i don't watch English dramas. but as everybody knows, exams are over and i'm still jobless and i've nothing better to do at home.

glad to say, i've 2 interviews on monday and 1 that i'll definitely reject cos it's too far for me, REX HOUSE, LITTLE INDIA!!! can you imagine. another 1, i hope i'll get it but what exactly is an associate consultant? whatever it is, i hope it's interesting and doesn't bore me.

and oh, before i forget, we went to pasir ris dog farm and brought lakz to bishan park to have fun. look at how happy he was, i'm so glad i made the right choice bringing him there. :)

i should just let nature take its course, i know.

I so need to work for goddamn sake. I'm very broke and that's what makes me so frustrated. sigh.

Fitness Theme

Yay! another batch of pictures from my shoot this morning. I love them, it's damn casual but I like it. haha. this is a fitness theme, so I'm supposed to look like I'm happy, in agony, in pain and super exhausted. whatever that's associated with fitness. cool lah! haha. :)

Ash's birthday

Ash's birthday

finally loaded all the pictures! we took 110pictures for that 1 night. lol. it was Ash's birthday, and we went to Blue Diamond which is some filipino pub in tanjong pagar. definitely not my kind of place to drink but I love the company! it's the first time I had so much fun after my exams even tho I only know some of them that day. I think my own friends arent as fun. lol! cos firstly, they dont go to such pubs and they arent open enough. hahah. i love the kissing pictures! haha. frankly speaking, i only know Ash, Jon and my cousin Jes, all the rest are just first timers. lol. Ash's gf's very fun too! the 1 that i had a lesbian kiss with. haha. would love to party with them some day. :)

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work today was totally crap. I didn't fulfill my job roles and left an hr later cos me and amanda were damn pissed off with the bloody event coordinator. seriously, I've never seen such irresponsible and unreliable coordinator. He's really way ridiculous and overboard, stupid indian. he should at least just text us whether we are working or not and not wait for us to call him bloody several times. stupid indian. argh. i think amanda's super pissed, quarrelled with him and he still shirk responsibility. ARGH. tho I need the money, I can't work for such an ass. thinks he's some god up there, like hello, u are like shorter than us, fancy telling amanda that he gave us the job cos we called him, cmon lah, u can kiss my ass. sickening piece of shit.